No Title for the Battle

Things changed in just a snap

What used to be normal became a bluff

Words turned into silence

Presence seemed to be absence

One mistake led to another

One lie added to the other

One chance to make it better

One more move to make me bitter

Don’t ask me why

Don’t ask me how

Don’t do things to make me wow

Just let it be

Just let me be

Let all this be just a memory

What once was beautiful to me

Was now becoming a misery

The monster that was tamed

Came back to life again

I hate that it happened

I hated even more that it didn't  end

I hate that it even became a cycle

But what I hated most is that it may never be the same again

Much pain have been inflicted

Hearts were left unguarded

Broken pieces were revealed

Wounds that never healed

How long will I suffer

Facing a battle I never even started

You brought me here with your selfish intentions

And now I have to carry the burden like I committed a crime of passion

I never wanted to be in this situation

Nor I ever wanted to be the center of your attention

All I ever wanted was a friend

But I have been misled

I am tired of the cycle

I don’t want it to linger

My words may not be gentle

But I cant stay being a pretender

Though my words may be few for now

My actions are speaking it out loud

The truth that is trying to come out

How long will you hold that

Now that things are getting worst

Truth hurts and that we know

Speak out and be bold

Do it now so we can all go

Happy Lemon-ing Peg

After having a short bob haircut, compliment came flooding everyday about it and about my new look. I was really overwhelmed by peoples reaction upon seeing me with my short hair. They’ve always seen me having a long hair so it was a surprise to everyone…and even to me…yes also to me as well. The last time I remember having a haircut this short was during my elementary days (so counting down, that would be around 2 decades ago…whew! That sounds I’m really old…hahaha ).

So I have been receiving a lot of comments, reactions and appreciation and fondness about my new hair and new look. And as they compliment, there’s always the most famous follow up question “Bakeeet?”

As much as I want to be honest with my answer (not saying that I’m lying) and explain, I would always tell them… “I’m imitating Happy Lemon” and they would all agree with me that I look like her>>> short hair with the bangs ^_^

Happy Lemon-ing Peg

The first time I looked in the mirror, I didn’t recognized myself. Funny right? That’s what you call adjustment stage. Being Happy Lemon look alike is one positive thing for me. It actually invites positive vibes in me that makes me reflect it to other people. Well, life have been so challenging lately for me with all of the sudden changes that happened and is happening. I never noticed the weight of the changes and events not until I realized that I’m already complaining and grumbling. To top it all, what really knocked me down was an emotional blow. And I told myself that’s it! I need some change, I want some change. I guess you know what happened next… taaadaaa… short hair! Happy Lemon peg hair.

Releasing the Tension

I felt good after having the hair cut.

Cutting my hair was my may of releasing the tension inside me. It’s my way of expressing my emotions in a more positive way than complaining, grumbling and being angry.

It didn’t solve any of my problems but it helped me channel my negative emotions.