The past months i perfected the art of being a stone. Hard as it should be. Never cry! Fight! No sad movie had made me cry lately even the recent movie that I’ve watched about moms working abroad (A mother’s Story) didn’t made me shed even a tear. Yes there were “a tear fell” moments but never a cry. But today, i really had a good cry. Tears keep falling and i keep on sobbing and my head is aching and even up to now while i’m typing i can’t contain the tears. Good thing my cousin is not here inside her room(so this is earlier today), she might panic. (And while im typing this, she just entered the room, buti na lang tears lang..then she asked, are you ok? hahaha.. i just said, no worries..she said, whats that? tumbler? are you confessing about your hate against me?..again i laughed and said, yeah this is about you, she said: “ang sama mo”.. and now you’re reading it. see its about you blehhh)
Back to being serious, so what happened? What brought the tears?
I just finished fasting last week and i really took it seriously because i know i badly need spiritual revival. Thank God that He sustained me the whole week and it was a wall breaking event. Slowly but gently, God is revealing every bit of me. I had a lot of realization and now i’m just so excited to do the things He wants me to do.
My discipler used to tell me, “Be sure that its Gods timing that you are waiting and not your own timing.” And i guess this is one of those days that she is referring to. After all the revelations that happened today i am so relieved. I didn’t plan any of it, but God didn’t allow pride to get in the way.
Though my tummy is aching, my eyes are swollen, and my head is aching…i am joyful.
Philippians 4:7 New International Version (NIV)
7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
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